I’m having trouble writing regularly because I fall into the trap of having too much pressure on all of my ideas such that I never feel like any of them are good enough. When I sit down to write, I’m afraid of failing and frustrated with my inability to express myself through writing. I’ve found myself in this loop of sitting down to write, but then psyching myself out and not writing, being upset the next day because I didn’t write anything, and then sitting again feeling even more pressure to write than before.
In order to break this loop, I’ve created this secret “reality” page based off of bill wurtz’s. If you look back at bill wurtz’s reality posts from 2010, you can see him struggling to figure out what to do and how to do it. Watching them 10 years later with the knowledge that he has created a beautifully unique style and content that millions have watched, it’s humbling to see him struggle to find his voice. I need to get the momentum started, but I don’t want to do so too publicly just yet because I honestly feel embarrassed about how bad my writing is. So I’ll put my earlier writings here on this secret page. I’ll be able to write write without too much pressure that it’s going to be highly public (not like the front page of internetseeker.net is a particularly public place lol), and a place to put them to consider them “final” so I’m not endlessly revising them. Also, it may one day be an interesting place to look back and see my earliest struggles and efforts.